I Love My Life!

so it's month five and a half of my new adventure and I tell you what, it's awesome. Being married is crazy and hard and exciting and fun and nice and weird... and still totally great. We are both at school now and just living life. There's some points where it's harder than others. I guess that's life though. We made our own bed instead of buying an expensive one and we are pretty darn proud of it. :) the only problem is that it's way high. hahah I have to literally climb into bed every night cause it's too tall. It's hilarious. Our apartment is cute and nice. We just decorated for Halloween and it's just a lot of fun. :) Classes are very time consuming and somewhat difficult but it's not too bad. Stetson only has class on Tuesday and Thursday but he has classes from nine to nine thirty. His classes are all writing based courses so he doesn't like them because they don't seem relevant to him at all, which I can understand. haha. So hopefully this semester will be the third to last that I have then I'M DONE! I'll be sad to leave here but at the same time I will be glad to start doing stuff that doesn't require me to do my homework every night and get paid for it. haha. so that's all that's happening at the moment. thanks for reading!

Adjusting to Married Life

So I got married two weeks ago yesterday and my husband Stetson and I are living in his parents' basement. :) yeah, whatever don't laugh. It's nice here but totally different from home so it's kinda hard to get used to. Last night was hilarious though cause we are making a room out of part of the basement and all of our stuff is everywhere including some adult things... we didn't organize much at all and his little brothers were snooping around our stuff and saw a gift (KY Yours and Mine...) we were given from his friends and the littlest one was so drawn to it and frustrated that I had hid it from him that he grabbed it and was like WHAT IS THIS? hahahah I took it and was like nothing Malone, it's just adult stuff... hahahah it was totally hilarious. I made them all leave and go upstairs before they saw anything else. Good times... kinda.

So Stetson's family it totally different than mine in that they are all very motivated to get everything done and quickly. My family and the way I am is very much more just relaxed and chill. Now that I'm here with his family, I feel inadequate and more or a waste of space than anything else. :( I am going to look for a job and stuff but I guess it's more difficult than I realize. I just hope that I'll find something to help be stay sane and seem more adequate. If you have any suggestions PLEASE tell me. Well that's all for now... been online too long and I'm feeling wasteful today.

Never Ever Have a Bad Day

So I didn't go to the devotional where this talk was given but I just read through it and I tell you what, it's one of my favorites. Sad, sad story about the dog but totally awesome meaning behind it. Brief synopses goes like this: the poor dog went out in the street and got hit by a car. He ended up with a cracked skull and his eyeball out of his head. A family friend took the dog out and shot his five times in the head and neck and then they buried him. Turns out the dog survived the entire ordeal and then goes home to his family. yeah. that happened. But even though it was a cool story and all, the best part was the rest of the talk. The best part of it being when he talked about Peter and Christ. Peter's name of course means rock but he was called rock because of what he would become not what he already was. It wasn't until after Peter had his "abomination of desolation" that he was really the Rock. Only after those hard times was he able to understand who he was. After I read this I truly understood the meaning behind us being, “willing to submit to all things which the Lord saw fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.” And how that relates to “rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer shame for his name.”

As of Late...

So Stetson has left and is is on week two of his internship. I guess it's going well and he likes the people he works with. One's a super shorty with his partner who is also a super shorty and then there's a really nice girl name Holly and a tall 6'6" guy who's name is Aran (pronounced Aaron). He's got a super weird roommate named Jason and I'm thinking it's a little gay... He likes to touch Stetson a lot and he's just plain weird. Completely out there. I have lost motivation to do anything but then feel bad that I don't get a lot of stuff done. It's an endless cycle, spiraling out of control. haha ok maybe not that dramatic but still. Wedding plans are coming along but now it's starting to get down to the nitty gritty and it's insane. hahah too many decisions and I hate making any kinds of decisions at all. My mom is flying out to Salt Lake next Wednesday and we are going to get a wedding dress and get a place for the luncheon and some other details. I still haven't gotten bridesmaids dresses or anything and the window of opportunity is coming to a close. All I know is that I want them to be blue and white and of course modest. :] hahaha sorry for all the laughing but it's all I can do to keep myself from screaming really loud in the library. haha If you hear about someone being banned from the library for screaming and going insane, you would be safe to think it was me. hahaha Have a Great Day to anyone who reads this. :]

It's official

So it turns out that last time I was on here I started dating Stetson and now that I have too much time on my hands, I've decided to update and start out by saying that I'm ENGAGED to Stetson Carroll :] haha. Crazy? yeah I know. It's super fast and crazy but it feels right so I'm not worried. There's a TON to do and I don't even know where to begin. Luckily, my mom is super supportive and totally helps me all the time. I'm going to be doing all the planning without Stetson 'cause he's going on an internship to Oklahoma City, Oklahoma on February 2nd. :[ I'm gonna miss his birthday, he'll miss mine and I won't see him til almost the week of the wedding... (which is May 6th by the way) Everyday gets harder to leave him and go to my apartment or have him leave. The day he leaves will be so flippin' hard. :[ O AND I'm still in school trying to get things done with that. I'm taking 14 credits... I haven't taken more that 12 since my freshman year of college. hmm o man. so any ideas or even just words of comfort would be much appreciated. :] haha love you all.

despair

So I'm not really in despair but it feels like it sometimes. I am taking Chemistry and it's been one of the only classes that I haven't been able to understand at all. I study and do my homework for it and try to understand the concepts but it's so hard! In our group studies everything makes sense but in the testing center it just doesn't connect. So it might just have to be a class that gets taken again later in my career as a perpetual student. hahah. I'm serious... In other news, I am kinda dating this guy.(no dtr's or anything) His name is Stetson Carroll. It's really nice but he's so different from any other guy that I've "dated" that it's like I'm 16 again and dating for the first time. He's really nice and totally just chill all the time. He doesn't like to fight with me about anything and his temper is almost non-existent (except when it comes to his professor in his EMT classes). It's just strange almost cause he's so different in every way than any guy. And he just texted me :) haha He's very confident in himself and is who he is all the time and doesn't care what others opinions are of him. He's from Spring Creek, Nevada and thinks I'm a city girl cause I'm from a town near Atlanta! hahahaha. yeah right. My small town is just a little bigger than his. His only downfall is that he hates trees and loves wide open spaces.... How can you not like trees? I'll never understand.

Small and Simple Things

So, it's been a while. I have been working as a lifeguard at a neighborhood pool in a town close to mine and the season is almost over. Today actually is my last day of being there all week long. I'm excited about a little bit of a break but at the same time I'm not so excited to be home with nothing to do until September... I was thinking about getting another job but where would someone hire me for just a month and some change? There are a few offers for being a nanny of a couple kids from the neighborhood I worked and there are a few offers for swim lessons so yeah but that's not really any sort of respectable income. I really am starting to see how hard life would be without an education and no chance of getting a job that is sustaining. There really isn't anything in this world, that is of worth, that you can get without putting forth an effort and giving it your all. Lifeguarding may not seem like a very difficult job but there are many things that are done and purposefully so no one can tell. It's a very all-encompassing job. With all the work that comes with it, there have been some very amazingly peaceful times. There was a few times when there was huge storms that come through and at night the pool lights come on and the water just seems to dance with the sparkles of raindrops. Other nights there would be no one for an hour or so and the water was perfectly still and a calm would come over me. I'd go lay next to the pool and just stare at the stars and everything was beautiful. I think those nights were some of the greatest blessings I've been giving. Such small and simple things create such a wonder. :)