Coldplay

So I'm just chillin' in the Library and I was looking for something to listen to and this song came up called Shiver by my favorite band Coldplay. I almost cried cause it was something that I needed to listen to. There was a line that said, "the moment I wake to the moment I sleep I'll be by your side." And , "I'll always be by your side". I was just in a religion class and I think that I was in the mindset that I could apply this to the Lord and his love for us. :] I just find it interesting that pretty much everything in life is just a testament of the Lord's hand in our lives. So good job Coldplay on helping me find some more spiritual truths within something as temporal as lyrics to a song.

I Cut My Finger

So sometimes when I get angry I like to go overboard and over exaggerate my reaction just for fun and make it totally unreal. hahah It's quite funny and we all laugh about it and stuff AND it does a good job of getting rid of my anger without hurting anyone. Not so of last night... I don't go into details about why I was mad cause that's way too long. So I had this glass bottle and I wanted to throw it out the window so I did but on the side of the building where not a lot of people go ever. There were a few cars there and I was scared that I would hit one and I accidentally did just that... Bad throw for me. It hit the car on the trunk and it broke off the neck of the bottle. I went down there to see if there was any damage and LUCKILY there wasn't. So no longer freakin' out I got the bottom half of the bottle and chucked it at the wall nearby. It was also not a good throw cause when I threw it, it rolled off my hand like a ball would and the sharp edge caught my finger. hahah so I start to bleed and I didn't even feel anything till I looked down. My roommates and I rushed back to our apartment and washed it all out and after a half an hour it stopped bleeding. It was probably one of the stupidest things I've ever done but it was really funny. :]

So in order for the reason I was angry to find out what had happened I fibbed and said I cut it on a posted sign that was in the parking lot. So don't tell if you figured out what I'm talking about... haha what a fool I am.

The Love of a Sister

so yeah i didn't mean to post anything the other day when I wrote just the... my bad. I was going to write about what's going on but I didn't have the time I thought I did. Anyway, so I have learned a lot about myself lately and it all seems to be because situations that I'm not entirely involved in. It's just interesting to see how families relate to each other but are completely different. All of my family was raised in the church with the same values and same opportunities to live good lives but the results so far are very different. My sisters are the opposites in so many ways but are the same person at the core. They fight like none other and neither one really likes the other at all or agrees with what they are doing in their lives. My older sister isn't active and does very different things than what she was taught by the church, while my little sister is very strong in the church and has a positive attitude when it comes to everything in the church. They are both very social and very kind hearted when it comes to everyone but each other. haha. Sometimes I think that I'm the mediator between them and both of them at the same time. The things I have learned are that I am like my sisters in that I have been in both of their places. I have had problems with listening to the counsels of the church but I have also been very blessed in that I was able to see what I was doing wrong and changed. It's strange to think that there was a time when my sisters were friends and liked one another. Hopefully, if things work out alright, they will be friends again. I don't think that will happen for a long time though. Especially if Brock(the nephew) becomes my little brother. There are things that make me believe that there is possibility of that happening soon with the decisions that my sister is currently making. I only wish my sisters were more similar(in a good way) then there wouldn't be this problem. Then again Brock(the nephew) wouldn't be around. It's sad to think what could have been different but then again we can't ever tell what would have been. I was just called to be a leader over some women who I don't know but they are my sisters. I just hope that I don't have to use the phrase what would have been with this new experience. Hopefully there will be a time when I love these girls as I do my own sisters. I just want to talk to all of them and help them all and solve their problems and their problems to come. That is the one thing I wish for this new year, semester and view that I've obtained, that I will be able to do everything I can to make things good.